I am home from a forced vacation in Utah and even though I could really have refused to go, it felt good to be someplace else for a few days that did not involve business. I was definitely out of my comfort zone and into eating all my comfort foods. Out of control is what I was and now, as I look at pictures from the trip I am sick. Sick of my chins, my fat body, my thick thighs and more. How did I come to be this way? My ass is the size of Kansas for God's sake! I can look at my body and see all the foods I love slathered on in the current outer coat of flesh I wear. I am sickened and all at once lazy. If I exercised would I be this way in ? No, most likely not as much of me would be making shade on the planet but I am lazy and it is so easy to climb back into bed or sit and make jewelry and watch tv. I am a lost cause tonight and I am sick when I think of the chins that surround my face.