I am still stuck at the overeating of sweets stage. I swear, if I eat a bit and binge for part of a day as I did on Valentine's day I can not get back on track. I want to continue to eat. I lay in bed at night and tell myself how good and strong I felt when I was watching what I ate but nooooo, I still cannot stop. WTF is wrong with me? Was I so hurt in childhood so belittled for being fat when I was not that I can not give up on the idea even now at 54? FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKK

Valentine's Day....

.... has come and gone but not my addiction that was rekindled this day for chocolates and sweets. I am a maniac now and can not seem to stop eating it! Out of control , crashing, crashing.... can not seem to divert myself from this disaster!