now

Everyday I wake up and  think this is the beginning of a new way of living. I am not going to overeat. I am not going to be held in bondage by my love of food. my lust of food. I certainly do not need to eat as much as I do. I should be able to push myself away from the table, from the food, from my life, from me. I am sad. I have not given up yet. How can I be so strong in other areas of my life and not this area?